No, its nothing, but i need time for myself…
Ok, whatever !!!
and this is how a lot of our conversations end… But what we fail to realise that its time like these when our friends probably don’t need a “ok whatever” but an assurance that you are around in case needed…
so next time you get into a situation like this.. all you need to do is tell your friend that you are around…
and it just managed to flow through !!!
still a busy day at office, no time to think about life outside… but this time.. a few smiles keep me company…
Its been a while I have been thinking… and i guess i have finally decided that I want to spend about 1,50,000 INR for my camera equipment…
no I am not going to do that overnight or in the next 3 months or 6… i mean i don’t really know… but i guess i know which direction to look in… i guess thats important for photography 😛
have a look… i have been looking at these pictures for sometime now… and i wish i can have them sometime..
amen…
that pushes the bike down the list for sure… lens needs to come before the bullet… aargh… why don’t i have enough money?
he happens to be a great friend… probably because after all these years… he has always been around even thought we differ in our thoughts and way of life… yaari dosti taaza maaza…
yesterday he wrote something that i really wanted to be told… whatever triggered that post of his, is not important to me… but the fact is…
“there is a lot of difference in loving someone and asking someone to love you”
yea yea… i am writing about relationships and love and all that these days… i know… one of those months i guess when this thought is on the hot seat MTV style… i am going to back soon with the usual set of stuff around…
mast likha hai tushar…
oh and yes…
Lets not circumference our abilities 😀 or something like that 😉
i write it first i guess 😀
Welcome to the new look चाय की दुकान…
The shutter got a new paint work… and it i feel looks better now 🙂
Thanks Sharanya for the help yesterday… It would have been tougher without you 🙂
When mom talks about getting married, I ask her why should I get married? and she would tell me, that its good to have someone around you… to come back to.. and my answer, and trust me an honest one, for about 2 years now, was I don’t need anyone to come back home to… I am happy this way… i don’t have to answer any questions, I live my life one day at a time, with ofcourse some plans to buy the new camera lenses, or how would i manage to get the Pajero I have my eyes on for a very long time… but then this is where and how it has been… a few close friends have also questioned me about this so called full of myself, selfish and insensitive attitude… but then again… i said so what.. this is my life and I decide how i want to live it.. not anyone else…
oh.. and by the way I manage to fix the rear speakers in my car today… the rear speakers had some wires loose… and it took me about an hour to take everything out and then clean the wires up and put everything back in… i mean just the wires… but it is silk smooth again… and the bass tube is back in… i can now reopen the discotheque inside my car :D… oh.. and yes you are welcome for a drive around…
par no smoking and daru inside the car please… its a restricted zone…
ok.. back to what i was talking about… so my life has been revolving around a few things for a few years… work… photography, which i started taking seriously sometime back, my car and parents… thats it… a few friends have been around during all these times when i have not talked to them for weeks at length… or told them about what i have been thinking and whats happening at my side of the phone, or the screen or whatever…
and today i thought… what if i am thinking about only myself when i am needed? what if i don’t even figure that out that i should have been around someone who was looking at me… not for anything else but for just being there… what if i loose someone because i needed time off from everything when they should have had my time? scary… not for the whole world, but when it comes to a few ppl i care for…
i guess i am on my way to do a balancing act… from one extreme towards a better ground… and reaching an equilibrium…
oh.. and thanks to the duck in the picture.. who gave me the idea 🙂 she is a darling…
Balancing Act…, originally uploaded by ~OM~ ॐ “FoTo-SoFiCaL” Bhardwaj.
We all gotta balance…. some just find new ways of doing it….
God has always been kind to me… and whenever I have wanted something real bad I got it… I am not sure the wishes of people who care for me help, or my parents faith in my capabilities helped, or my efforts helped, or was it a mix of everything…
I started talking to Bindiya about how i want to be different and not click the usual buildings and flowers… and she said that I could participate in ASK’s initiatives… but i said that I would do it when I would get my dSLR…
I was hoping to get a dSLR, and my slr conked of leaving me without a camera for about 3 months and then Gaurav Narang, another friend, got me my first dSLR, the Canon 400D from Hongkong…
Moradabad happened and went and clicked… and go appreciated for the work i did there… happiness 🙂 unlimited…
and then Bindiya told me about the DGF Photocontest, and i forgot, and then she pestered me to submit my entry… I managed to do that on the last day of the competition hoping that i will get in the top ten…
I did manage it to the top ten and then win the competition too… A small but firm start for me… and a lot of happiness and satisfaction as well…
And today, an article, which is a result of my conversation with one of the ladies in DGF is up on their website… and I am feeling really good about it…
Should i say again.. God is kind to me… Whenever i need it… I get it.. whatever it might be…
Thank you God..
Thank you ma papa…
Thank you Bindiya…
Thank you everyone who voted, got me votes, or saw the poll…
and thank you everyone who cares…
You might want to read the article HERE..
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This took me a while to make… but it was nice collecting the shells and then making my favorite symbol and my favorite sound in the universe…
For all these hours when i was making this, I did not think about anything else… strange how some things can bring you peace…
its strange to be someone who i told a lot of people not to be !!!
Prashant beta kya kar rahe ho.. saara gyan baant diya khud ke kuch bhi nai rakha…
ab bhugto…
in case you read it and have an opinion… hold on to it for a while… or write to me personally… am deliberately disabling comments on this post…
