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I have been asking mom for this now.. bada mazedaar conversation hota hai…

” chunnu, i think you should get married now…”

“mom, getting married is not easy… forget abt the girl for a sec.. but other then that.. u need a whole bloddy lot of money… “

“We have the money… no issues…”

” Ok great.. then first buy me a royal enfield… and then i will think about getting married…”

hehehehe.. this is where the discussion usually ends.. i do not know if i am going to buy the bike or not.. but mom knows that its my dream to have a bullet one day !!! and i will get it….

And i also want to buy a carrom board… and a digital SLR… i guess the dSLR is going to wait for an year.. i want to do well wit the film based baby right now…

carrom board.. i guess i wll buy it in the evening today… and bullet.. i am hope i can get it by my next happy budday to me !!!!

becoming a stranger to herself.. and becoming a friend to me… this is not fair.. anyway.. why should i be complaining.. i am getting a friend who cares.. and is very very choosy about who and what she cares for… which means that i am the chosen one 😉

she will also copy me in things that she things are correct as per her…
she will also get angry when someone would try to speak something with authority which she is not comfortable with !!!

my day started late today… first thing i did after i got up was get on the net.. for some reason i am spending too much time on the net these days… what do i do when i am connected.. well do not ask… i browse.. i chat to a couple of friends.. and a few to be friends… and i just stay there !!!!

had to meet richa today post lunch… but her class and an old professor kept her from reaching there at the time we talked about.. so she sent me an sms that she would be late.. and if it was ok with me… welll.. it was… i was really looking forward to meet this new person who i was talking to for a few days now… so i decided to wait till she gets free..
we finally met at 1530 hours.. in barista South Ex… one place that brings back a lot of memories to me… for the good and the bad times i spent there with shikha… ok back to present… she did not make me wait.. and was there before me.. i kept her waiting for a while… however i was on time as well…

she was wearing her glasses… and as she correctly said… she looks intellectual with those glasses on.. and looks beautiful without them.. so either ways… she is wonderful person to be seen with..

about talking… mmm.. i guess she has her choices… she might like to be interested in talking to you sometime.. and that is when she will be looking at you… but there is another feature of hers.. which can confuse you.. this is when she is listening to you and looking somewhere else.. which is kinda distracting at times…

She was a nice beautiful person and i was at ease with myself while talking to her… however i was kinda cautious towards that fact that i am usually very raw with myfriends.. and i should not just drop to that level with her too soon.. however that happened and made her angry towards the end of our meeting…

i realised a problem with me here… that the first impression while talking or chatting to someone is of a very happy go lucky yet kinda sofisticaed fella.. and in due course of time the person might just realise that there is a very very raw and un-refined part of me. which comes out when i am comfortable with that person.. somewhere inside me the villager who has no sense of communication is still there… and the polish of the urban world has still not been able to remove that completely…. i am not complaining or something.. i think what i am is a mix of the qualities that i need in myself basis the kinda ppl i meet and talk to.. a good percentage of my time is spent in conversation with my relatives who are still connected to the rural world… and what i am fits in bloddy well there.. and i have managed to do well in the urban jungle too.. so i guess i am fine with whatever i am 🙂 though i should be careful about what to speak and when !!!!

so an ice tea later… i learn one more word called Thoosh !!! this is used to refer to a person who eats a lot…
and richa went back richer with two words… tambi and mundoo… both of which i use to refer to the waiters… or the buzz boys… no offence ok !!!!

i felt really bad for her when she told me about a few health issues that she had been living through. and i really admire her for the kinda calmness she has with those issues still being around.. masta attitude i must say !!! keep it up richa.. if you are reading it !!!

the time at Barrista comes to an end…. and we walk to teksons looking for a map.. which we did not find.. and then got into a small tiff… because of what i mentioned earlier.. the tone of my voice.. which a lot of ppl would not be comfortable with to start with… even though the intention is correct.. when i speak that way.. it comes out rude and harsh… ppl who know me for sometime know how i talk.. but i guess it was too much for richa to handle…

anyway.. i tried a li’il to make it up to her.. and i guess i managed it too.. just had to try saying the same sentence in a few different ways 🙂 had a quick 10 minute talk on the road too.. before i moved towards radha… and she towards… the subway !!!!

all the time while walking towards the car.. i was thinking of how i said what isaid.. and was i really rude.. and i could not get an answer.. till i talked to aro in the evening… will come to that in a while..

took out the car from the parking.. and then drove back home.. listening to Safri Duo.. loud is the word about how i was playing the music.. richa did not manage to see the car.. or hear the music system in it today.. may be some other day…

ok back home.. mom and me had to go to a tailor.. but mom found out that the tailor was sick so we did not go.. Tushar.. or burf as the blog world know him.. came over that time.. after a long gap.. and we decided to just walk to the sector-18 market.. check out a few dames.. we both feel that in noida.. the quality of dressing has improved with women.. so most of them look good.. and are good to look at… we do not stare u c.. coz we also have to see that all the good ones get equal amount of look.. and there are so many that we cannot afford to look at someone for more then about 10 seconds.. ok 20 if she is like really hott !!!!

ended up in a book shop.. where i just could not stay coz i am not a book guy !!! just wanted to get some maps here too.. did not find them here either.. so i was just checking out some hindi funny poetry and some light angrezi books… i found one… Department of Denails… by the same guy who wrote the inscrutable americans.. i remember reading that book… i think i will order it online… from indiatimes.. i get a good discount there.. me is a book club member in indiatimes….

back to home.. tushar wanted to drive my old 800.. so i grabbed the keys and gave it to him.. and he drove to our favorite hangout place in noida… the Tea SHOP.. it has shifted to the sector-37 market, near the telephone exchange… awesome collection of tea there.. and i always like to have something or the other there…

while driving… i managed to talk to a very sweet friend of mine.. who is outside delhi these days.. talking to her is so much fun.. i can just talk about anything under the sky with her.. and have also managed to share things with her…. things which i have managed to keep inside me for a long time… i hate the fact that she is not in delhi.. i miss her a lot… talking to her is so so refreshing….

so we took our tea.. tushar took the peach ice tea.. with some extra mint leaves.. and i was having my leechi ice tea.. with a lof of mint again… and this is where we got into a conversation about my love with books.. and how my dream of a shop can materialise.. i like the fact that tushar was serious about my dream.. and gave it a lot of value… we discussed a few things about how to take it from there.. how i can manage to have my taste in books get developed.. and then i also told him.. what can i read.. and what are the kinda things that i can connect too..

that reminds me.. earlier in the evening.. he was telling me that in some small village in india… the male-female ratio is so low.. that they have started marrying a woman to more then one man !!! we got into a really though provoking discussion over this.. and moved into a some cheapshit as well !!! this is something that i should not be discuising here.. just want to tell that our intentions were very clean !!!!

anyway.. came back home… tired.. after a long day.. and managed to talk to richa again over the chat… told her about what i felt…. and she is to tell me a secret… i am waiting…

oh and yes… she told me that she told her friend.. that i am a sofisticated fella !!! sahi ha na !!!!

Ok.. here is something which a friend, Richa… forwarded to me yesterday…one of the nicer people i have met and very easy to talk to … i am comfortable talking to her… and thats good enough for a start !!!!

what follows is a small somethingie about myself.. i thought instead of filling it up and sending it to 15 friends of mine.. so that i can get a good news in 23 minutes.. i rather fill it up and paste it here…

so here u go.. for more about me…

* Starting Time:1100 hrs

* Name : Prashant Bhardwaj

* Nicknames: chunnu, OM, Pete, Peta
* Starsign: Aries
* Location: NOIDA
* Colour of eyes: black
* Hair colour : black, and a few grey and a few white 🙁 old age u see…
* Brothers/Sisters: none
* You live with: ma and pa

——————HAVE YOU EVER——————

* Missed school bcuz it was raining : yes
* Been in a car accident: na… oh yes actually.. got sandwhiched between a baleno and a maruti 800.. but came out scratchless… and the two of them would have remembered it for a long time…
* Been hurt emotionally: YES…
* Kept a secret from everyone: yaaa…
* Cried during a Movie: yup.. when i was a kid.. now i can laugh at movies that make u cry…
* Ever thought an animated character was hot: nope… wondering how would catherine zeta jones look when she would be animated.. neah !!!
* Been on stage : lots of times.. grad was spent doing that only…
* Been sarcastic?: yupp…..

——————FAVORITES——————
* Shampoo: no favs here….
*Soap: lirill… or harmony.. or margo.. or dettol… oops… so many of them.. i guess the answer to this question is no favorites here too.. but i know what i would not use…
*colour/shade: Red/ orange/ yello…
* Summer/Winter: Winters….
* Cartoon Characters: Bugs Bunny, Launchpad, Jerry
* Drink: Water, and fresh Sugarcane juice

* Food: chinese… veg….
* Movie(s): Jaane bhi do yaaron, Chashme Baddoor, Golmal, Angoor, Hera Pheri, Kisi se Na Kehna, Chupke Chupke, Chalti ka Naam Gaadi, Waise bhi hota hai-II, Seher, Rajnigandha, actually.. any comedy movie..
* Subject: none… though would have loved to study theatre…
* Animal: Tiger
* Person: none… no favorites here…

——-RIGHT NOW——————
* Hair: umm.. ok sorts.. wearing a wet look gel…
* Wearing: red check shirt with beige trousers
* Eating: just had a orange cream buiscit
* Drinking: water…
*Thinking: of what are the rest of the questions.. when is this survey going to end 🙂

————IN THE LAST 24 HRS—————— * Cried: Na
* Met someone new,if yes who: na…
* Cleaned your room: na… i do not remember the last time this miracle happened….
* Drove a car: yessssss… i love driving my palio…
* Been pissed off: yes.. on a guy who is -ve 100 on IQ

————–DO YOU BELIEVE IN—————
* Yourself: Yes….
* Santa: NO….
* Toothfairy: NO…
* Angels: NO…
* Intelligent life in space: Yes….
* Ghosts: Yes…
* God: Yes…
* temples: Not really.. though i like being there…
* love at first sight: Not really.. though my car is a result of love at first sight… never happened otherwise…

• ————FRIENDS AND LIFE——————
* Do you have a soul mate? Yes.. just that i have not met her so far…
* Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? nope.. would not mind having a girlfriend though…
* Do you like anyone? Lots of them.. a better question would be .. who likes me 😉
* Who have u known the longest of your friends: Sandeep Verma… he works with iBILT these days… i met him when i was in Standard-III
* Who’s the weirdest: a whole lot of ppl… do not want to name them here…

———-ABOUT GUYS FOR GIRLS TO FILL OUT———–
* Long or short hair:
* Good or bad guy:
*cap or No cap:
* Tan or fair:
* Rugged or sporty:
* Accent or no accent:
* Funny or not funny:
* Cute or sexy:
———–ABOUT GIRLS FOR GUYS TO FILL OUT——–
* witty or not: yes yes yes…
* Painted nails or not: does not matter.. till the time its not black or blue or darkest red nailpaint…
* bikini or swim suit: umm…. bikini 😉
* Hot or cute: cute…
* Dressy or casual: casual
* mature or immature: mature….
* Dark or blonde hair: dark
* Dark or light eyes: dark
* funny or not: Phunny…
* Good or bad gurl: good coz the bad ones do not find me good enough 😉
* mini skirt or shorts: shorts…
* Intelligent or average: intelligent
* Hair open or tied: open
* Jewelry or none: none
* deep neck or high cut: dunno…
* Tall or short: tall
* Curly or straight hair: straight
* sex goddess or romantic: romantic
* Pants or dress: dress
* Tan or fair: tan
* Accent or Not: no
* Shy or outgoing: outgoing.. but who knows when to speak what…
* sporty or prom queen: umm.. dunno.. probably a decent mix of both…
* long or short hair: long… actually no issues with short either.. but i guess long look more graceful…

————-FOR EVERYONE TO FILL OUT——-
* Silver or gold: Silver
* Diamond or pearl: Pearl
* Sunset or sunrise: Both in the mountains…
* Do you sleep with stuffed animals: do you consider women as stuffed animals? hehehe… so far none in any case…

* Have you ever got stitches/sprained/fractured: sprains yes.. stiches fractures no…

* Do you have any piercings?: NO
* Rain, sun or snow?: Rain.. without the mess.. sun in the winters… snow.. umm.. duno.. but yes.. its lovely…

* How is the weather right now?: I am inside a centrally AC office.. its good…
* Who won’t respond: not sending it to anyone…

* Six packs or muscules (arm): six packs… a dream is a dream is a dream…

Survey ends at 1120 hours…phew…

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

And this is what Richa had to write about herself… in the email that she sent across to me…

* Starting Time:6:21PM

* Name : Richa Bhardwaj

* Nicknames: rich,richie
* Starsign: virgo
* Location: Delhi
* Colour of eyes: brown
* Hair colour : black
* Brothers/Sisters: 1 bro
* You live with: mom dad and bro

——————HAVE YOU EVER——————

* Missed school bcuz it was raining : yes
* Been in a car accident: not really
* Been hurt emotionally: yes
* Kept a secret from everyone: yeah
* Cried during a Movie: yep
* Ever thought an animated character was hot: hell no!
* Been on stage : yeah
* Been sarcastic?: loads of times!!!!!
——————FAVORITES——————

* Shampoo: no favs as such
*Soap: ditto

colour/shade: orange/green
* Summer/Winter: winter
* Cartoon Characters: mmm jerry i guess
* Drink: mango juice

* Food: anything veg
* Movie(s):chupke chupke,ddlj,etc…. quite a few, actually..
* Subject: oh it used to be bio.now….umm….maybe money
* Animal: dogs
* Person: my bro
——-RIGHT NOW——————

* Hair: messy
* Wearing:pyjamas
* Eating: nuthing
* Drinking: nthn
*Thinking: of what i should eat

————IN THE LAST 24 HRS——————
* Cried: nope
* Met someone new,if yes who:yeah…another guy on orkut,Avishek
* Cleaned your room: no.its clean only.just cleared my bed before leaving for col.
* Drove a car: no…:((
* Been pissed off: ya.. sorta
————–DO YOU BELIEVE IN—————

* Yourself: totally

* Santa: no
* Toothfairy: nope
* Angels: kinda
* Intelligent life in space: ya

* Ghosts: i don’t know
*God: YES!
*temples: yep
*love at first sight: no

• ————FRIENDS AND LIFE——————

* Do you have a soul mate? not really
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? no

* Do you like anyone? nO

* Who have u known the longest of your friends: ruchi ,ruhi and mansi

* Who’s the weirdest: the whole gang in college

———-ABOUT GUYS FOR GIRLS TO FILL OUT———–

* Long or short hair:depends.but usually short and neat looks better
* Good or bad guy:for me….good 🙂
*cap or No cap:no cap….but in winters its ok
* Tan or fair:doesn’t matter
* Rugged or sporty:if i HAVE to chose between just these 2 then i guess rugged
* Accent or no accent:no accent
* Funny or not funny: funny
* Cute or sexy:a bit of both
———–ABOUT GIRLS FOR GUYS TO FILL OUT——–

*witty or not:
* Painted nails or not:
*bikini or swim suit:
* Hot or cute:
* Dressy or casual:
*mature or immature:
* Dark or blonde hair:
* Dark or light eyes:
*funny or not:
* Good or bad gurl:
* mini skirt or shorts:
* Intelligent or average:
* Hair open or tied:
* Jewelry or none:
*deep neck or high cut:
* Tall or short:
* Curly or straight hair:
*sex goddess or romantic:
* Pants or dress:
* Tan or fair:
* Accent or Not:
* Shy or outgoing:
* sporty or prom queen:
*long or short hair:

————-FOR EVERYONE TO FILL OUT——-

* Silver or gold: silver
* Diamond or pearl: diamond
* Sunset or sunrise:Sunset
* Do you sleep with stuffed animals: no!

* Have you ever got stitches/sprained/fractured: stitches,sprains and fractures…all of them

* Do you have any piercings?: yup
* Rain, sun or snow?: all three….none in excess.

* How is the weather right now?: hot!
* Who won’t respond: i have no clue..

* Six packs or muscules (arm): neither i guess.but muscles are a turn off.six packs are still ok

Batra Got married yesterday.. who is he… he is one of my very dear friends.. his name is also Prashant.. he got married to his sweetheart for 4 years.. Somya.. they started going around when we guys had joined Spectramind and batra met her in the training batch !!!

Another love-story reaches a milestone. God bless them with all the happiness in this world !!!

has anyone listen to the Album “Indian Idol“… what a peice of crap it is… i was listening to it in the morning while driving to the office.. and the way they have screwed up Kishor Da’s numbers is something that cannot be captured in words…

they sound so fake !!!

Kishor Da I miss you…

p.s. can someone please send me the song.. the original Bindu Re Bindu from Padosan…. on my email prashantbhardwaj@gmail.com… please please please….

he was listening to his favorite songs…. songs that talked about love.. songs that talked about care.. that talked about care and feelings…

and he could not help but think of the times when he thought he was in love… it brought a smile to his face… and tears in his eyes.. coz he was hurt.. he had been loved and he had loved… but it all ended in pain…

and today, even though he knew being in love made life beautiful, he was not ready to fall in love again….

these fathers… uff…

i called up papa when he was still in school and asked him to get some Gulab Jamuns for me from Kaleva ( its a sweet shop in Gole Market CP)..

“yaar, wo mere liye bilkul ulta padega.. 3 km ka extra chakkar lagega…“

“papa, mereko nai pata.. aap bas lekar aao.” ( me like a 10 year old kid)

“theek hai.“

“theek hai weekh hai kuch nai. Aap kahin se bhi lao par lekar aao“

“theek hai dekhta hoon…“

and he disconnected the phone…

about an hour and a half later.. he came home… and had two bags in his hand.. i was like.. i had asked for just some Gulab Jamuns… kya le aaye…

and when i saw what was there in them… here is what they had

10 Gulab Jamuns… ek dum garma garam
10 Rajbhogs.. from my favorite Bengali Sweet Shop Sandesh…
& 10 Bengali Roshogullas… again from Sandesh…

now we are just three members at home… and mom does not eat a lot of sweets unlike me and papa… who are total sweet freaks…

we managed to have just 7 gulab jamuns… and the rest is there in the fridge… care for a party anyone?

love u dad 🙂

they met after a long time… how often does it happen that you meet one of your good friends just once or twice in 9 years… and that too just by chance..

finally after a few conversations they met… she was a fast driver.. and he could not catch up… so she waited for him to join her.. and then drive slowly not to loose sight again… all through this time.. they were talking on the phone…

a cafe, two old friends, lots to talk about….

she looked the same like in school… but she had changed.. she had a shell of her own.. and there was no one who could enter that… she did not like to answer any questions, she was not open to any sharing of thoughts and feelings with anyone, she did not want anyone to be bothered about whats happening in her life if they could not do anything about it… she did not need any long talks and conversations… she could just live on her own.. and enjoy and be happy…

and he was scared… it was tough to see someone just like him, sitting in front of him !!!

she was with her friends that afternoon… and her boyfriend was with her too.. but he did not know anyone from that group…

he was not sure if he would like being there or not… but she inisisted and he joined her…

she was talking to everyone around… and he was not.. he was quiet.. silent.. and just looking at her at times… careful enough not to make it obvious that he was not comfortable there…

and then… she silently without anyone knowing it… held his hand softly…

she was still talking… he was still silent… but everything had changed !!!

Outta there… yes… i felt kinda releived to be out of the team i was working in for the past one year… no.. i liked the work.. it was the manager… i read somewhere, that its not the companies that people leave.. its because of the supervisors that people tend to leave their current jobs.. and time and again this is proved right by the managers !!!

in the new profile that i am in.. i take care of the quality in a helpdesk.. not something that i really wanted to do as a part of my walk towards my career goals.. but it happened. and i think i can make a difference here…

i guess.. i will work here till i can… keep studying and researching about what i want to do.. and move out at the right time… God Bless me… this is going to be one difficult phase… not as difficult as working with the wrong boss… but still !!!

am walking……….